Madman

Sometimes I don't know how I got this far
With too many rainy days
And too much time in the bars
Most of the time I'm just floating
High above this world
Don't know if I'm a big boy now
Or just some crazy little girl
And I've been cold as December babe
Been too cold to die
Thinking I lost my love
Thinking I lost my life
I've been the outlaw baby
And I've been the garbage man
I've been so many people
I don't know who I am sometimes anymore

And he loves me like a madman
He loves me like a king
And he cries like a baby
Who knows he's got everything

I can feel it sometimes
It's the strangest thing
Not like rage or blues or anger
Or any other place I've been
I keep it to myself
And I keep up the pace
But sometimes late at night
I call out your name
Yes I do I do

And he loves me like a madman
He loves me like a king
And he cries like a baby
Who knows he's got everything

Call the Ghost

You scared the ghost
And found the beast
That lies within
With these words
In this moment
The search begins
Words like cannonballs
What angel paid our dues?
How many lies did we have to tell?
Before we knew the truth?

And I sat back
And watched you run into walls
I could not live my life
Waiting for you to fall

What a love like a storm
Tearing rocks at the shore
Fighting like there is no use
Of saving our souls anymore
The darkest darkness
And the brightest of bright
You call the ghost to your body
And cling to him in the night
And it is burning my head
It is burning my head

It tells me I should simplify
Just hang tough, live your lie
And hold onto the lust you justify
While I sit back and watch you run into walls
I could not live my life waiting for you to fall
And now it's burning my head
It is burning my head
It is burning my head
When you call the ghost
When you call the ghost

Heaven

I know a girl
She comes from a war-torn country
She lives in my city now
She misses her family
She moves on, and she does very well
But sometimes in the corners of her eyes
I see a little bit of hell

What she wouldn't give
What she wouldn't sell
What she wouldn't say
To find heaven

I know a man
He does whatever he pleases
He works in a factory at night
And paints pictures of Jesus
He had a beautiful wife
He had two beautiful sons
But I swear he will pay all his life
For the damage he's done

What he wouldn't give
What he wouldn't sell
What he wouldn't say
To find heaven

I know a girl
So beautiful on the inside
But she's got scars the size of Kansas
From a fire she can't hide
She loves a boy
You wouldn't have an idea
How he brings her flowers and joy
But you know, he doesn't even see her

What she wouldn't give
What she wouldn't sell
What she wouldn't say
To find heaven

And I think I know you
A little too well
You're so fine, you're so open,
You're so intelligent
It's kind of hard to tell
But I think you know what I'm saying
And I think that you recognize
There's no one playing a tune like that
Don't be so surprised

What you wouldn't give
What you wouldn't sell
What you wouldn't say
To find heaven

Drown

It doesn't take a brain surgeon
To understand
Why people throw chances away that fall
In their hands
Well I've been know to give
I've been known to steal
I've know people who hate me
For what I feel

Let me drift in your water
Let me drown in your sea
Let me drift in your water
And drown in you sea

Some folks stick together
Some folks can't at all
Sometimes things get better
After the chips fall
I've been watching you
And I've been wondering how
I've been wondering
Who puts the sting in your tears now?

Let me drift in your water
Let me drown in your sea
Let me drift in your water
And drown in you sea

I know we try
To soften these edges
But these edges,
They keep getting harder
And before you know
The distance grows
You're too weak; you're too dumb
You're too tired to barter

Let me drift in your water
Let me drown in your sea
Let me drift in your water
And drown in your sea

Closer

Open up your mind
It's a little more quiet now
The armies have gone to sleep
I'll help you out the door
And down the hall
And out into the street

The closer I get
The deeper I feel
The more I know
This is real

If I could I'd open the door
To all of your dreams
Never ask you what you came here for
If it's good,
Then it's real
Take my hand,
You've got my heart
And take the chains
Keeping us apart

The closer I get
The deeper I feel
The more I know
This is real
And it's not like I'm asking you
It's more like I'm telling you
I need to know what you feel

I was so lost
For the longest time
What my heart desired
I thought I would never find
I watched everything disappear
Until there was nothing left
But you, standing here

The closer I get
The deeper I feel
The more I know
This is real
And it's not like I'm asking you
It's more like I'm telling you
I need to know what you feel

Doors of Devotion

I am colliding again
I'm staring down at the bullet
I'm on the underbelly of the under-endowed
I talked to the mystery man
He plays his maraudering games
He always says,
"You've got to turn your cause up real loud"

That might pacify you
It won't pacify me
I'm shooting up on faith in the backroom
Looking at my mercury destiny
If I could just say yes,
But my heart says no
Oh these doors of devotion
How they open how they close

I pay my respects to the maker
I pay homage to my mother
I paid the bills on time
Before the river flooded
Sometimes I lose the meaning
Sometimes it's not worth the try
Sometimes I get the feeling
I'm just living to die

That might pacify you
It won't pacify me
I'm shooting up on faith in the backroom
Looking at my mercury destiny
If I could just say yes,
But my heart says no
Oh these doors of devotion
How they open how they close

I had my head on the rocks
I had my hands in the air
My stomach was tied up in knots
Just before I got there
Oh the sweet smell of the ocean
And how that wind did blow
Oh those doors of devotion
How they opened how they closed

That might pacify you
It won't pacify me
I'm shooting up on faith in the backroom
Looking at my mercury destiny
If I could just say yes,
But my heart she says no
Oh these doors of devotion
How they open how they close

Overboard

Oh Lord, take me down
And throw me overboard
I've been too long
Sitting on this useless dock
I've tried to make sense
Of such a senseless world
Can't take it anymore
And I'm going down

My love had his hands
In all the wrong pockets
Now he believes
What he wants to believe
I've tried
But you know I can't stop him
Can't change a bullets mind
At that speed

I'm going down
For the last time
Might take a while
Might take all my life
What does it matter to you?
The one who couldn't see?
The only one who was true?
It might have been me
Going overboard

I watched the sunset
For the 29,000th time
I've seen my bones
Lying in the sand
It's hard to lose
When you feel like you've been trying
And I tried my damnedest
And I still don't understand why

I'm going down
For the last time
Might take a while
Might take all my life
What does it matter to you?
The one who couldn't see?
The only one who was true?
It might have been me
Going overboard

You say you're lost
And you've been waiting on me
I've been lost
Just searching for the signs
Whose mistakes did you think these would be?
Well I fear, my love, they've all been mine

I'm going down
For the last time
Might take a while
Might take all my life
What does it matter to you?
The one who couldn't see?
The only one who was true?
It might have been me
It never was you
It might have been me
It never was you
It might have been me
Going overboard
It might have been me
Going overboard
It might have been me
It never was you
It might have been me
It never was you
It might have been me

Darklove

I spend my nights up here in this room
Got an old piano and a view of the moon
In the morning I'm smiling
And no one can tell
That I made it to heaven
Just to get through hell

Mother and father you must listen to me
I spent half my life trying to get free
Still you call in the middle of my nightmares
Saying, "Sorry to bother, you've got to know that I care"

Oh it's such a darklove
Gonna mess you up
Too hard to hold onto
Too good to give up

My love, my love you have taken my soul
You captured a heart and it won't let go
Still you drive me to madness
You drive me to tears
Please take this pain
Please take this fear

Oh it's such a darklove
Gonna mess you up
Too hard to hold onto
Too good to give up
Oh it's such a darklove
Gonna mess you up
Too hard to hold onto
Too good to give up

They told you not to touch this
They told you not to touch this
They told you not to touch this darklove
This darklove

Town Idiot

I wouldn't blame it all on you
Not even if I wanted to
We all did our fare share
We all got a cross to bear

You run me ragged
You run me ragged
But I love you
Yes I do

A little bit of sunshine
A little bit of tears sometimes
The bitterness is in the vine most times

You run me ragged
You run me ragged
But I love you
Yes I do
Because you're every single one of us
(The town idiot)
And we are all you
(The town idiot)
You're very single one of us
(The town idiot)
And we are all you

You got caught with your pants down
Jack-knifed on the ground
Ain't nothing you can do now
It's all over town

You run me ragged
You run me ragged
But I love you
Yes I do
Because you're every single one of us
(The town idiot)
And we are all you
(The town idiot)
You're very single one of us
(The town idiot)
And we are all you

To Be Human

I wandered after you in the crowds you carrion
Now I know you feel the beauty of being alone
You take a backseat
You take any road
You take any chances
You love to bleed
You love the feeling of your own senses

You and I are so much alike
Just talking about love and about life
You and I may see eye to eye
But we try so hard when we try
We try so hard to be human

The fall leaves are turning
The wind turns
Your back gets so cold
We walk along laughing
Feels like we're getting old
Your family and friends don't understand
That changes you're going through
Though we walk in silence
There's so much I want to say to you

We have fallen
We know the meanings of love
We know the feeling of pain
But we'd do it again and again
We'll do it again
To be human

"Thanks but I'll stay in the gray", you said
"Love makes me feel like dying,
And I'm afraid of being dead."
Now the fate has twisted
And the bonds are broken
We face the truth
But we bass the truth
On words not spoken

You and I are so much alike
Just talking about love and about life
You and I may see eye to eye
But we try so hard when we try
We try so hard to be human